Pages Written Today: 1.5
I polished off a couple of pages as I rang in the New Year quietly at my computer. I figured I'd start this project off right and set the tone for the rest of the year.
I'm very quickly recalling why it is that I've shied away from commitment in recent years, actually, for the last 15 years since I ran into a variety of health issues in my late teens and life took me on a wild ride. That old mix of excitement, anxiety and complete dread has begun wending its way into the pit of my stomach. This year is going to present challenges to me. I can feel it. But with every challenge comes an opportunity to learn. This project will give me the chance to confront my fears and learn how to balance the fear with the excitement in order to create something wonderful. This year is not just about writing a book, it's about manifesting my talents, finding new coping skills (I still have health issues that need to be worked with) and learning how to move more fully out into the world. A tall order for a tall penguin.
But somehow, I feel like it's time. And I feel like I can do this. Wherever this project leads doesn't matter. For me, it's about taking a journey into what is possible. And from where I stand, the possibilities are vast. We shall see what we shall see.