Describing the torturous journey of writing a book, Orwell wrote in the essay, "Why I Write":
"Writing a book is a horrible, exhausting struggle, like a long bout of some painful illness. One would never undertake such a thing if one were not driven by some demon whom one can neither resist or [sic] understand. For all one knows that demon is the same instinct that makes a baby squall for attention. And yet it is also true that one can write nothing readable unless one constantly struggles to efface one's personality."
Mental Note: Do not die for sake of book. That would be bad.