Friday, December 25, 2009

Happy Anniversary To Me!

I just realized that I missed my three year anniversary of this here blog. It just passed on December 20th. Wow. I can't believe I've been blogging for three years now. Here is my first entry:

WEDNESDAY, DECEMBER 20, 2006

Testing 1, 2, 3

So, this is a blog. It's all new to me. I figured I'd just dive right in rather than look at what other people have done here, since my inner voice will kick in and tell me I can't do it as well as everyone else and all my creative juices will pool in the lower recesses of my brain causing me great angst. So, here goes. Be gone inner voice.

Once upon a time, I wrote. A lot. Every day. Poetry. Journals. Essays. Whatever I felt like ranting about. And then life happened. Not the good kind of life. The crappy, kick-you-in-the-stomach-and-stomp-on-your-head-kind-of-life. And the muse left or rather cowered deeply within my soul, like the vulnerable child she is and refused to come out to play. But she's back. And I'm back. And well, here I am writing again.

It feels kind of strange really. This whole cyber world. The ability to put your thoughts out into the cosmos so freely, so easily, at the click of a button. It's a strange sort of vulnerability that creates, to be so exposed. I've always felt that sharing my writing was like lying spread eagle on a bed for all the world to see. So blogging for me is the equivalent of coming out as a porn star. I'm naked, I'm shaved and I'm about to climax. Everybody watch.

tall penguin
The more things change, the more they stay the same. I still get squeamish when I read other people's blogs. I still think everyone else does a better job at expressing themselves than I do. But I'm also still that girl who's willing to jump into the fray and expose the deepest, most vulnerable bits of herself for the sake of the journey.

Thanks everybody for watching. Hope you'll be around for the next three years. I think the best is yet to come. (Pun entirely intended.)

tall penguin

3 comments:

Rich said...

Happy three year and five day anniversary!

Also, I'm pretty sure that you're much better at expressing yourself than I am so not everyone is better at it than you are.

tall penguin said...

Thanks Rich. And yes, you are correct. Not everyone is better than I am at self-expression. I realize that I was overgeneralizing. This is a tendency I am still working to repattern.

Rich said...

There could still be almost six billion people who are ;)

(It seems very doubtful though.)