As you well know, I like to play with my identity. When you no longer assume you know who you are, you wake up each day and decide that you can consciously re-invent yourself.
Coming up to my 35th birthday, I feel the winds of change swirling around me. There's been a flock of butterflies living in my stomach for the past few weeks. I sense a major change in my Universe. I am filled with a combination of excitement to know what it is and anxiety to know what it is. Yet, I'm being present with it all and smiling, spending most of my time in a state of expectant wonder. I love watching my life unfold.
So, last week I decided to get my haircut. Short. Really short. I felt it was time to shake things up. Granted, I've had short hair in the past but it's been a long time since it's been this short. My stylist was delighted because, well, he's a genius and loves that I let him do whatever he likes to my hair. I've been with him for twenty years (one of the longest relationships I've had with a man!) and he's seen me through every cut and color imaginable. I actually used to do hair modeling for him...oh the pictures.
He was ecstatic when I told him that I wanted a complete change for my birthday.
"I want to look sassy and sexy!" was my request.
And he worked his magic.
But there was more to the transformation. I've always wanted glasses. I'm the only one in my family that doesn't wear them. So, I was out the other day and came across a pair of accessory glasses, meaning they don't have any prescription to them, they're just clear lenses. I tried them on and fell in love with my bookish reflection in the mirror.
Now, people who wear glasses don't seem to understand why I'd want to wear glasses if I don't need to wear them. Well, I've always found glasses incredibly sexy. I'm not sure what that's about, but I've always been attracted to men who wear glasses. Perhaps it's because I like geeks and glasses signal geekiness to me. I don't know. Whatever it is, glasses do something for me.
The other aspect is well, it's me, and you know me, I like to play. The glasses are just another way of doing a bit of research in the great social experiment I call my life. I'm curious to see if, wearing glasses, I am perceived differently, treated differently or if I attract a different sort of man.
I won't be wearing them everyday. Like any other accessory, I will wear them when they go with the look I want to show the world that day. So much fun!