So, I started Adderall last week. We're addressing the possible ADD/ADHD stuff before investigating the possible Bipolar stuff, taking the dosage low and slow so I can monitor anything that comes along. I must say I am very blessed to have a team of doctors and specialists that are working very closely with me and are very honoring of my patient autonomy. I still feel very much in control of this process and don't feel as if my innate personality has been altered, as previously feared, by this ongoing experiment in my own psyche and biochemistry.
Adderall is a stimulant, which in the ADD/ADHD brain is supposed to have the opposite effect, a slowing down of the mind rather than a speeding up. So far, I find my brain more focused and my mood more level. Not sure if this is placebo effect at this point, but I do feel more able to do things I want to do. My follow-through and motivation is noticeably improved and I find my levels of fatigue and pain improved as well. Perhaps Adderall is giving my ADD brain in the Chronic Fatigue/Fibromyalgia body a reversal of fortune. I am hopeful about this. Meh, I’m not going to get ahead of myself. Time will tell.