Monday morning I went to post an entry here and the big black symbols of internet doom appeared on my screen: ERROR 404. I spent a few hours fiddling with DNS and CNAME junk, to no avail. So, I let it be. And today, voila, here it is fully functioning once more.
This inflicted pause gave me some time to reflect on what I write here and who writes here and what am I doing here?! I am in a wondering stage right now. I wonder whether this blog in its current form best represents where I am now. I no longer consider myself a former Jehovah's Witness. I do not consider myself a former anything. Nor do I consider myself a humanist. I am just me. I am just. I am.
This journey we've taken together has been long and meandering, painful and triumphant. I'm not sure whether to leave this blog up as a testimony to that journey and the hope that it will be of use to someone on a similar path, or whether I should pull it down and start anew with something else. Or perhaps there is a middle ground where I can just continue on from here and reinvent what "tall penguin" represents.
Blogging is a strange medium for expression. Very different from writing a book or something else concrete that can't be edited later or deleted or changed into another form. There are so many options here.
I wonder what I will do next.