"For all that has been: Thanks.
For all that shall be: Yes."
I took my blog down to reflect. There was nothing pressing for me to say here and it hit me that some of my rants betrayed the "terrible" two-year-old in me that was desperately in need of attention. Rather than share that with the world, I took some downtime to nurture that child, learn some lessons and wait until I was back in a space where I felt I had something truly of value to say.
This blog has been quite the journey. It started off as a means of unclogging my brain and the only consistent way I could communicate with my then-boyfriend. It then turned into a therapy tool for venting, questionning and processing my post-cult experience. Then it evolved into a very raw exposure of what it means to be a human trying to understand what it means to be human. I wanted the blog to stand as a testimony to the struggles of self-realization, the view from inside the cocoon as the caterpillar attempts to become a butterfly. This made me incredibly vulnerable at times. It's dark, gooey and frankly, a little grotesque inside the cocoon.
I appreciate the safety you've all given me to be vulnerable here. You saw me. You listened to me. You challenged me. My friend D takes the old adage It takes a village to raise a child and spins it to It takes a village to live a life. Yes. Thank you all for being part of my village.
As I begin 2009, my intention for the blog is to continue to reflect on the questions of life, what it means to be human, and to continue to radiate a sense of wonder for the seemingly small delicacies of life that bring a smile to my face. I hold 2009 in my consciousness as a year of great change, great growth and deeper knowing. I wish you all radical gratitude and acceptance as the next twelve months unfold.