Thursday, June 12, 2008

A Girl Like Me...

August 8, 2001

In the beginning
You said,
"I've never met a girl like you before."
And I asked,
"Is that good?"
And you said,
"Yes, it's good."

And yes,
In the beginning
It was good,
It was very good.
In the beginning
It was very, very good.

We talked
And shared
Our anarchistic tirades
Our motionless charades.
The fears
The dreams
And everything in between.

There was touching
And feeling
And I laid bare my soul
Hoping you'd swallow me whole
But instead
You pulled away.

"I've never met a girl like you before."

And it was bad.
It was very bad.
It was very, very bad.

My heart gaped open
Old wounds resurfacing
How could I believe this thing?
Your wide open space
Became a desert where I
Could no longer bloom.
Petals dropping to the sand
And I demand
An explanation.

Why?

"You got too close," he said.

Too close to what,
I wonder.
Too close to what?

No answers
Just silence.
The silence you feel in your heart
Just before it explodes.

Was it all for show
Your anti-establishment dance
Your Luddite stance.
Perhaps you're more status quo
Than you thought you were.
Or maybe you don't really know
What you want
After all.

And it was sad.
It was very sad.
It was very, very sad.

But I refuse to change
I refuse to believe
That I should alter
My heart, soul and mind
To entertain men of your kind.

I will not falter
But remain strong
The road's too long
To be thrown off course
By a coward.

I said, "I love you."
But I feel no shame.
There's no one to blame
For my heartfelt truth.

I will not shrivel up
Like some buttercup
In want of rain.
I don't need to explain
Nor refrain
From sharing my thoughts
Or fears
Or dreams.
Because that's what makes me
The girl unlike any other you've met before.

You are just a flutter on the page
To incite my rage
And then disappear
Into your cave of fear
Where you will never see
That being loved by the girl who's different
Is the best love there can be.

And in the end,
As in the beginning,
It was good.
And I am good.
Yes, I am very, very good.

tall penguin

4 comments:

Cranky Ol' Lady said...

Aaaahhhhhh, that is GOOD!

tall penguin said...

Thanks col!

Every time I see you comment here, my heart does a little leap. You're cool!

hannabelle said...

Being the nosy gal that I am, I can't help but wonder...it sounds a lot like...but I refrain.

Very good piece, though, good indeed.

tall penguin said...

LOL hannabelle. It was written in 2001 so it's definitely not about who you're thinking. But, yes, the similarities are uncanny. Life has a funny way of repeating itself.