In a world of fugitives the person taking the opposite direction will appear to run away.
Everyday we make choices. Some of them take us in directions we never thought we'd go. And sometimes, it appears that the choices are made for us. That we just show up and are taken along for the ride. It is difficult to go against the flow of the mainstream, to be true to yourself, to honor your own unique nature. But what is the cost of doing otherwise?
I was offered a job recently. Back in the fashion industry I once loved so much. It would require me to work on commission, something I was interested in trying, but it soon became obvious that the sales target was going to be the end all and be all of my daily experience. I saw myself having an enjoyable conversation with a customer and then watching as another "big money" customer enters my department. I saw myself pondering for a moment ditching the first customer in order to go over to the guaranteed sale. And that was it. I knew I couldn't take this job.
Integrity is no longer a luxury. I can barely spend a day now doing something I don't feel connected with. If it doesn't jive with who I am, with my core values, I just can't do it. Perhaps that is what happens when you've lived a life of compromise, when you've sacrificed your soul on someone else's altar. It's no longer acceptable.
So, here I am, once more, living the simple life, enjoying my low-paying bookstore job. And still never been happier. One day, I will find my way into work that both pays well and nurtures my soul. It's only a matter of time. All things are.