Saturday, December 8, 2007

Worshippers Wanted

I'm reading Harold Bloom's, Jesus and Yahweh: The Names Divine. It looks at the characters of Jesus and Yahweh from a historical and allegorical standpoint. I’m only into it three chapters so far, but I’m finding it fascinating reading. And humbling.

Once again I find myself reflecting on my own history and my honest and sincere desire to believe that Jesus and Yahweh were real, divine persons. And now, the more I read, the more I realize how deluded my own thinking was. It’s still difficult for me to accept that I centered my whole life, for 31 years, around characters that have little, or dare I say, no, proof of even having existed, except in the collective consciousness of people who wanted to create something from nothing. I may as well have given up my life for Santa Claus or the tooth fairy or Zeus for that matter.

Whenever I read these books I can’t help but feel duped and incredibly small. It still boggles my mind how much I took for granted about life and the universe. How narrow-minded my view of things was. How much I overlooked about the Biblical characters and justified in my own mind as a testament to my “faith”. Now I look back on Yahweh and Jesus and so many other Biblical personages and see them for what they are. I do not sugar coat their behavior or try to fit it in with what I want to believe. I see them as characters in someone else’s fiction, characters not unlike Shakespeare’s finest. Interesting, but not real.

All logic aside though, I hear Poseidon’s looking for some new followers. I always thought tridents were pretty sexy. Maybe I could make an exception.

tall penguin

3 comments:

heart2heart said...

I've been enjoying your blog lately :) I've been thinking about this subject as well... how the characters in Christianity are no different than the mythological gods of Greece and Rome... those of which were once revered but are now relegated to stories and folklore. Why should Christianity be any different? How many people have invested their lives like you and I have, in mythical creatures that can do us no harm, or good? It is amazing what we humans decide we should keep and what goes...

tall penguin said...

Thanks for your comments.

"How many people have invested their lives like you and I have, in mythical creatures that can do us no harm, or good? It is amazing what we humans decide we should keep and what goes..."

Indeed. It's tough to sort out why we believe what we believe. It's a very complex dynamic. I really wonder what a world without religion would look like. What would we be without our gods and monsters?

kwintestal said...

I'll have to check out this one.