I've only ever experienced sex in the context of a committed relationship. I've never done the casual sex thing. I was a goodie little jw who prided herself on her moral purity. Oh how far I've come (no pun intended). Casual sex has been really interesting for me to explore. It's blown open many of my root fears of abandonment but has also opened up my ability to show unconditional love.
There's something quite pure about being able to share intimacy with someone without any expectation of commitment or promises of relationship or of future plans. I'd always thought I couldn't connect with someone unless it was clear where the relationship was headed, unless I knew I wasn't in danger of losing my beloved. But it's different now. I can't lose, because nothing is mine. I don't possess anyone. I share moments. I share experiences. I share life and love and breath. It is mine to give and receive. And remarkably, it is enough.