I've been off for the last two days with the flu. It's the only two days I've had off in a row in almost two months. What's funny to me is how once you start resting it becomes easier and easier to stay inactive. How the body begins to unwind and gets used to being idle.
While I'm enjoying the down time, I find it a bit unsettling. I still have underlying fears of not being able to get going again. That somehow a break will screw up the momentum I've created over the summer and I won't be able to get back on track. Is that rational?
It seems hard to find the balance between rest and work and play. As it's difficult to find the balance in most things in life. I wonder about balance. I wonder how to maintain balance in a world of constant change. How to create a sense of internal homeostasis that supports you no matter what is going on externally. I think we all crave balance in life. And yet, it's so elusive isn't it?