Monday, August 13, 2007

Old Photos...

It's strange how you can look at old photos and see yourself and realize you're not that person anymore. And maybe you're not even sure who that person was. There was a story surrounding that person, but what about it was real?

I'm feeling nostalgic today. Teary. I'm missing people. But as I look through my old photos I realize I don't know these people anymore. I know the story we had together at the time, but I don't know who they are anymore. Did I ever really know them at all?

Some of them I wish I could see again. Really, I just wish I could be in their space and be quiet with them. Hold them. Love them. Be present with them. Be me being me being with them.

Sigh, there are no more words.

tall penguin

8 comments:

Donna said...

It is interesting. I look back at people who I miss. But I figure they are not around for a reason. And things wouldn't be the same anyhow. Today I was feeling like I wanted to get tattoos, cut my hair and highlight it blue. I sorta wish I was a teen again so I could get away with murder...and not look like some crazy 30 something.

Donna

Ganga Sunshine said...

Such a poignant posting. I know this feeling very well. I have all these albums of life with my lover man husband and since he has left this world, I wonder what I should do with them all. I am no longer that same woman. That life has become part of my immediate moment and I know that what we feel is eternal. The pictures seem to be a weight of heaviness many times. I know that it is true when we hang on to the past we cannot get the forward moving momentum as easily. I totally get your posting. :) Smiles.

Anonymous said...

and i miss you too

tall penguin said...

Hey Donna! Nice to see you here. Hey, if you're talkin' tattoos, lemme know, I'm still mustering the courage but damn girl I really want one too.

tall penguin said...

Hey Ganga. I feel like I know your husband now. It's strange but sometimes I feel like chatting with him. He just seems like such a great person. Maybe he could give me some love advice? :)

heart2heart said...

I agree with Donna as well... people come in and out of our lives for a reason, they give us experiences we would not have had if it weren't for knowing them, they teach us things about ourselves and help shape us... but then, people change, including ourselves, and we drift off in different directions. There are many people I miss too, but I know it would not be the same anymore, so much time has passed, and our lives have changed so greatly. But I am glad for the friends I have in my life right now, the ones who help make me who I am today... like you!

tall penguin said...

Hi anon, I'm sending you love and light whoever and wherever you are. Know that you are loved.

~tp~

tall penguin said...

Heart2heart:

It does seem that people drift in and out of our lives as if on some unseen schedule. I'm not sure it that is real or just how it seems, but it is true that we must treasure the moments we have right now with those who are in our lives.

More than ever I see the value of being present with what is. I'm learning.