Sometimes I feel like I have free will, the ability to choose. At other times, I'm not so sure. I sometimes feel pulled by my genetics/environment to behave a certain way or make a certain choice. And then, there's a third category. Perhaps it's fate. Perhaps it's intuition. But there are times where I feel pulled in a certain life direction. Pulled as if by a magnet, by some unseen force, to make a particular choice.
Like the choice I made to get a job at the bookstore, or to get my own apartment or to walk the Camino---these didn't seem like choices. There was no choice, like the decision has been made for me and I am just going with the flow. It's a lovely feeling really. One of complete surrender. One that stems from a place of knowing deep within my soul. From a place of complete fearlessness. These words barely even describe it. If you've felt this before, you know of what I speak. If you haven't, you will. Be still and listen.