Tuesday, May 22, 2007

What's in a name?

For those of you who know me personally, you know that I have a hyphenated first name, the first part of which is a very old English name. It is the name of my maternal Grandmother. It is an old woman's name. And it has always felt like an old woman's name.

My whole life I have felt burdened by this name. It felt like the baggage of my mother's unrealized dreams for herself, her desire to be like her mother. I am not her mother. I do not want to be her mother.

So, I find myself in an odd place. What do you do with a name that you know in your heart does not represent who you really are? Or does it even matter?

For now, just call me "tall".

tall penguin

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