I've been thinking a lot lately about how we go about determining truth. Sometimes we go by personal experience to determine whether something is true. At other times we may use things like the scientific method to determine whether something is accurate. Depending on the situation, we may use a combination of both, along with other ways of determining truth, like intuition.
The search for truth has been the focus of many throughout history. Is it ever really possible to know for sure though if you've found "the truth"? Our own mind, which we are using to find such truth, is self-limited by its very nature. The mind is self-creating in that whatever we can possibly theorize about the outside world is only what we can create within our three pound universe, our brain. How can we objectively determine what's true while still using the brain with which we ask the questions to begin with? I think sometimes this is the gap where God appears; where we begin to hope for some outside force to give us the objective truth we so deeply desire. But again, just because we can dream it, think it, feel it, create it with our own mind, does that make it true? Does that make it absolutely real?
The more I watch the goings on inside my head, I see how little objectivity I am capable of when it comes to truth. How many more questions there are than answers. And how insignificant my view of the world really is. Each day I find myself answering more and more questions with a 'Maybe. Maybe not'. Most immediately, these questions pertain to my health as that has been an ongoing dilemma for me. I ask: Do the antidepressants I'm being prescribed really work? Maybe. Maybe not. Does Homeopathy work? Maybe. Maybe not. Does massage work? Maybe. Maybe not. And then there's the more existential questions: Is there a God? Maybe. Maybe not. Am I really here? Maybe. Maybe not. Is there life on other planets? Maybe. Maybe not. Does any of this really matter? Maybe. Maybe not.
I have grown bored of my search for answers. I have grown weary of the search for truth. I really just want to enjoy each moment as it comes. Is this the answer? Is this what it's all about? Maybe. Maybe not.